|Posted on January 24, 2012 at 12:05 PM|
Following a surgery on my knee, I had a patch of skin which had no feeling. I could run my finger over the exact line where the sensation stopped. The nerve that supplied that area of skin had been cut during the operation. 16 years later, the nerve has healed, and I have normal sensation. But at the time it was the strangest thing. Have you ever had that kind of feeling in your spirit? You apply God’s truth to it and you can’t feel a thing? You bathe it in beautiful music that glorifies Jesus, and it just rolls off? Nothing produces feeling? How can we escape feelings of numbness? How does God feel about us when we feel dead or paralyzed? How can we regain excitement and passion? I’m (slowly) learning that a good way to address a problem like this is to first find the relevant promises. Then, it’s helpful to attempt to view ourselves from God’s perspective. So, the promises:
Promise: God promises to be found. Jeremiah 29:13-14 “You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ declares the LORD.” God does not try to make it hard for us to find him. He puts himself in our way when we search for him. When I play hide and seek with my kids, I have the power to get out of the house, go down the road, and hide in the bush, and they would NEVER find me. But I want them to find me. So I hide to make it fun for them, but if it’s too hard, I give them audible clues so that they will find me. I think that searching for God moves his heart. “Seek and you shall find.” Matthew 7:7. God knows that when we commit to seeking him, our heart changes, and he loves to bless that change. So he asks us to seek.
Promise: If we enjoy God, he will satisfy our heart. Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the LORD; and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Imagine that all your clothing has been woven out of coarse hair, and you have never worn anything soft or comfortable. You live in a mud house with a dirt floor, and you sleep on a think blanket. Now imagine a soft, rich, dense and luxuriant cashmere sweater. (I realize this may not resonate with male readers. Just pretend that you’re female for a moment.) Imagine being enveloped in its warmth and richness. Imagine enjoying the way it feels against your skin, and the way you feel valuable and precious because of the sweater. This is the picture in this verse. The Psalmist is saying, “Enjoy God this way. Delight in him. Be at peace in him. Find comfort in him. Luxuriate in him. And he will answer your deep heart desires.”
I don’t want to be critcial, but often our spiritual numbness comes because we focus so much on ourselves. Our heads are down, our thoughts are inward, and our vision of God is vague or nonexistent. Our thoughts are about the friend who made a cutting remark, or the guy who cut you off in traffic. It's all about how bad my life is. One of the prescriptions for changing a feeling of deadness is getting our vision fixed on our risen Saviour, Jesus Christ. How does God feel about us? Does our spiritual numbness affect him? I believe it does. While God is sovereign, he is also passionate about us, and our situation affects him. He offers us rest, and a freedom from weariness and overload. Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Sadly, I often completely miss the rest that God has for me because I don’t ask for it, or seek or. I don’t give him the chance to bless me. I keep my deadness to myself.
Finally, sin will make us feel distant from God. Sin damages our relationship. It makes us fearful of God’s punishment, and it obstructs the Holy Spirit from speaking to us. Proverbs 28:9 “God detests the prayers of a person who ignores the law.” John 9:31 “We know that God does not hear sinners; but if anyone is God-fearing, and does His will, He hears him.” A prayer God will answer is “Lord Jesus, can you show me any sin in my heart, so that I confess it to you, and find freedom and rest in you?” He loves to hear prayers like that.
Don't let Satan convince you that your numbness is irreversible. It IS reversible, and Jesus is the most richly living and passionate Person there is.